A Punch in the Face

It took us a lot longer to get pregnant than we ever dreamed it would. It was definitely a huge test of our faith for us. If you are struggling with this, please email me. I would love to pray for you! I wrote this post a while back about what we were learning.


I don’t know why a year is the magic number. But I had always thought that I would consider writing something after a year was up. Maybe it’s because after a year has passed you need to see a doctor. Or because every time I have tried to write this post I dissolve into tears.

You don’t know how many times I have prayed, “Lord, I don’t want to write about this. Please don’t let me go through this. I don’t want to write about this.” I told the Lord I wouldn’t write about this. It is too raw and too painful. But a couple of Sundays ago as I was weeping in the bathroom at church, I heard someone else in there weeping too. And I knew that there are other people struggling. And it made me want to be a bit more open about our struggles.

We want to be parents. But in the past ten months (I actually wrote this post almost five months ago. So its been about 15 months now) of trying to have a child the Lord has not decided to give us one. We never expected to have a hard time getting pregnant. It’s been a punch in the face to our faith. It’s knocked me down and made me question can I get up again and trust the Lord?

Because that is what it comes down to. Am I willing to trust the Lord? 

Am I willing to trust Him even if we never have a child? Am I willing to trust that He is working in our life?

I have never seen the effects of sin more clearly. Bodies effected by sin that don’t work the way God intended. Abortion. Teen pregnancies. Each one a slap in the face; a sharp reminder that we live in a fallen world. Each one a reminder asking do I trust God? Do I trust that He is good? 

I bawl every time I see a pregnancy announcement on Facebook. Every time. First babies, second babies, sixth babies. Each one a reminder, do I trust God? Do I trust that He is just

I die a little bit every time someone tells me, “Oh you have only been married a year and a half! You shouldn’t think about kids!” Do I trust that God is sovereign?

When we finally stopped making plans that included the phrase, “Well, if we get pregnant…”, I asked myself do I trust that God is bigger than our plans? 

I don’t feel qualified to write this post. We don’t medically fall into the category of infertile yet, so I have hesitated to write this post. I also have hesitated to write it because I know that there are those of you who have struggled for years with infertility and have had to deal with things that we have hardly scratched the surface of. I am thankful for your examples of faith. Your examples encourage us to trust the Lord.

We are learning to trust the Lord in ways that we have never had to before. We are thankful that we are forced to decide, “Will we trust the Lord?” Yes, we will. Even when it is hard and we cry together, we will choose to say, “Lord, blessed be your name.”


The Real Reason I Have Not Been Blogging



We are really excited for this addition to our family coming in September!

Before You Post Something Controversial


I love social media. I love keeping up with friends who have moved away. I love reading what other people have learned through blogs. I really enjoy the benefits of the internet and I truly believe that there are benefits.

That being said, I think that we are all aware of the downfalls of the internet as well. And one of the biggest downfalls is the ability to create controversy. I don’t need to go into the ugly details (and goodness knows it can get ugly!) because we have all experienced it.

Today I just want to challenge you to think about these six THINGS before you post something controversial.

T – True

Is it true? 

Is the article you are posting true? Does it have scientific proof or is it just opinion? Is this something that you have studied for yourself?

H – Helpful

Will this article truly be helpful to others?

I think it is good to post things that you believe will be helpful to others. But just make sure it is truly helpful first.

I – Intent

What is your intent in posting it? 

Is your intent really to edify your brothers and sisters in Christ? Do you desire to challenge them to greater Christ-likeness? Or is it to prove a point?

N – Necessary

Is it necessary to post it? 

Or will it cause unnecessary strife? I think we too often freely post things without thinking about the implications.

G – Good Testimony

Will it be a good testimony? 

Will posting that controversial thing be a good reflection of Christ and you as an ambassador? Or will it cause a negative view of Christians?

S – Scripture

Does it line up with Scripture? 

If it does not, then you should not post it. Bottom line. If it is one of those “gray areas” of Christian liberty, do some Scripture study on the topic yourself before posting.

These are some of the THINGS that I think through when I post on my blog. I try to avoid controversial subjects because the point of this blog is not to stir things up, but to edify my brothers and sisters in Christ.

Let us spur one another on to love and good deeds!

10 Things I have Written in my Bible

10 Things I have Written in my Bible

My Bible is twelve years old. It’s pages are ragged from years of study. It has pink paint on it that some kids at camp in Washington spilt on it. It has traveled to Uganda, France, Switzerland, and Haiti. This Bible has been my constant companion in trials and elation.

I am one of those people who writes in their Bible. My Bible has twelve year old Courtney notes and speakers’ eloquent quotes. I have filled up the extra pages in the back of the Bible with study tips, favorite passages, and great quotes.

Today I thought that it would be fun to share with you a few of the things that are written in the covers of my Bible.


Are you burnt out or overwhelmed by ministry? Ask yourself these questions:

  • Do I have the wrong motives?
  • Am I doing it on my own strength?
  • Am I actually exhausted?


7 A’s of Confession:

  1. Address everyone involved
  2. Avoid the words “if,” “but,” and “maybe”
  3. Admit specifically
  4. Acknowledge the hurt
  5. Accept the consequences
  6. Alter your behavior
  7. Ask for forgiveness


“Time, money, affections, and attention will point out what you worship.”


3 R’s of Getting Right with God

  1. Remember
  2. Repent
  3. Repeat


3 Steps for Bible Study

  1. Observation
  2. Interpretation
  3. Application


6 Characteristics of Biblical Conviction

  1. It is always based on study of, submission to, and application of Scripture.
  2. It is always predetermined.
  3. It will not change with circumstances.
  4. It is inflexible.
  5. It is bold.
  6. It is always lived out.


“Be killing sin or it will be killing you.”


“Thankfulness is a soil in which pride does not easily grow.”


“Good things become bad things when they keep you from the best thing.”


“To be a Christian is not religious, routine, or rote, it is a relationship.”



Do you write in your Bible? Share with us some of your favorite quotes that you have written in your Bible! 

Mundane or Magical

Be Faithful

Dear Christian, today be faithful.

Be faithful even when it seems mundane. And when someone else’s life looks more exciting. Finish the ministry that Christ has given you. Acts 20:24.

Be faithful even when it is painful. Even though you do not know how you can keep going – how you can take one more day of the sorrow. Trust that Christ keeps His promises. 2 Peter 1:4.

Be faithful even if it is not what you planned for your life. Keep in mind that this is the best place for you to grow in sanctification and to give the most glory to God. If it were not, the Lord would have you somewhere else. Proverbs 16:9.

Be faithful even though you are tired. It seems cliché to quote 2 Corinthians 12:9, but Christ’s power truly is shown through our weakness. He gets the glory for strengthening and upholding us. 2 Corinthians 1:9.

Be faithful even when it is hard. When interactions with people are painful, when you are emotionally drained, when it seems pointless to keep going. The Lord is faithful. He will keep His promises. Let that motivate you!

But also be faithful when it is easy. When life is going smoothly and things are bright and happy, be faithful. Do not just skate along, be intentional to pursue faithfulness. Do not let your guard down, that is when you are most susceptible to temptation.

Whether life is mundane or magical, painful or pleasant, planned or unplanned, pursue faithfulness.

Trust in the Lord and do good; Dwell in the land and cultivate faithfulness. Psalm 37:3